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Today, I realized that I was avoiding my feelings last week. I didn’t really post anything personal. Anything worth entering in a diary at least. Reason being, I don’t feel so happy these days. I am not sure why… I feel sad. I am faking happiness, because I don’t want others around me to feel affected by my mood.

Something is not working… I don’t know if I am PMSing or if something is just completely out of whack. I am grateful for so many things I am working on, I feel that I have accomplished great things. Somehow, again back at square one. Something is missing. I have a smile on my face, really I just want to stay in my bed, sleep and cry all day. Hopefully this is all temporary. I am not sure where this is coming from…

Perhaps I am just overworked and need some time to myself. I tend to do that a lot. Take on so many things at once, and before I know it I feel drained. Throughout the day, I have no problem faking happiness. However, once I get home I realize I am not happy. Something is missing, something has BEEN missing for a while. I just ignore it. I hate to be the one to bore people with my problems. Which is why I didn’t want to share with you.

*SIGH* sorry if I have bored you, I just feel that I have to keep it real with my readers. I am indeed having a broken heel moment. I know it will pass but right now, in the midst of all these great things with my career and this blog… I have to admit I feel defeated. I feel alone. I feel empty.

Do you feel this way sometimes?  Do you sometimes hide how you really feel so that it doesn’t affect others? What do you do to get over it?