Letting go is hard to do

Written by krissy December 7th, 2009 | Published in Broken Heel Diaries

Why is letting go so hard? Letting go of your comfort zone to take a risk. I used to be all about taking risks. Unstable was my middle name. I couldn’t spend a year in a place, whether that was in a city, school, house. Inculcated risk was the name of the game. I wonder how I did it. No fear whatsoever. I often made decisions and acted on them within 48 hours, regardless of how many people thought I was crazy. Somehow, all of that didn’t matter. I had strong conviction in my decisions. Little did I know, that would all change. From 2004 to 2009 without realizing, I was learning stability. I had a steady job for four years, I lived in the same city for four years. I was happy somewhat, to had finally found that things were constant in my life.

I think I enjoyed it so much that I became comfortable and I had quickly forgotten what it meant to take risks without fear. Without doubt. Never doubting that risk taking had to improve my current situation. During those times, the risks I took had to work for me, there was no plan B. I never planned , I relied on my instinct and my conviction that I would be alright.

Was being unstable that bad? I think it taught me a lot. Maybe its finding a balance between stability and instability. I seek now to find the person I once was, the person who so easily could let go without being afraid of what may come. The person who believed that everything would work out accordingly.

I am ready to let go and know that it will all work out. I let go of those that don’t deserve my time. I let go of those who helped shaped the woman I am, knowing they will always be a part of me. I let go of comfort knowing that outside of comfort comes growth. Most importantly, I find a part of me which I should have never lost, the part that knows no matter what- that I will achieve everything exactly how I imagined. The part that trusts that, everyone who truly understands and supports me will be by my side.

Have you ever been in a situation where you have had to let go and step outside of your comfor zone? How did you get over the fear of letting go?

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