Dear Jacob two two
It`s been 16 almost 17 years since I have known you. In those years, you haven`t always been what I would call a “good friend” , in your defense though you were always there. If I ever shed a tear, you were there to wipe it. You did not always remember my birthday, or important dates in my life but you were a constant figure in my life. When things in my life where all but good, you staged an intervention and asked me “WHAT ARE YOU REALLY DOING?”. No one else could get through to me but you did. When you asked me that, you may not know it but I woke up and changed my life, that was six years ago. You gave me that push to go after my dreams.When I did not believe in myself, when I was about to give up because I did not think I could attain my dreams you pushed me as you looked at me and said “WHY NOT? WHAT`S STOPPING YOU? GET IT TOGETHER NOW, BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE”
That`s why when people ask me why I am so forgiving of you, I know that you have brought so much more to my life than they can see. With every disappointment you brought to me, with every time you let me down you made me stronger person. You taught me how to stick up for myself and not be so vulnerable.
Friday you picked me up from the airport, and on the drive I learned a few things such as you were in love and found the one you would be with. My initial feeling was happiness for you, then I found a feeling of selfishness “WHO`S GONNA BE THERE FOR ME NOW?” I could not tell you that but that`s exactly what I thought. I have been thinking about it for two days now and I know better. I know that you have taught me some great lessons in my life, and your time to teach me those lessons is over. You have taught me everything you came to teach me in all those years. I stand taller now. I am glad to say that you may not have known how to be a good friend to me, but you are still here. Thank you for helping to contribute to the woman I am today. Despite everything, I am here for you as a friend always. It does not matter what happened in the past. I know those situations were necessary for me to be where I am now.
The main lesson that you taught me is that I can stand on my own, I know everything I need to know to be the person I want to be. I used to be scared that I didn`t but you told me I could. Now I believe it.
