Everyone uses this sentence and throws it around like it actually makes sense. Took me a while to understand it, even after using it for a while.

Last night before I went to sleep, you consumed my thoughts, I couldn’t shake it. I am not sure why. Maybe you were thinking of me at the same time? I went to sleep and I dreamt of you, it seemed so real. I was so happy until… See in my dream, you came to town and called me out of the blue to ask to see me. I was so delighted, got all dressed up, met you for some drinks. You looked so handsome, you were happy. We still clicked, still connected, as usual. We laughed, we smiled, real smiles the kind that crinkle the side of your eye smile. I was happy like a child in a candy store, it doesn’t take much to make me happy. Somehow you always know how to make me happy.  In my dream, we sat side by side in this bar, as I leaned against your shoulder, while we talked about all the moments we missed as we were apart. I told you about all the great things happening in my life and you did the same. Then came towards us two girls who seemed to know you, by the look in their eyes, you looked at me confused. Still you spoke to them, as they asked how you had been and what you had been up to. You didn’t introduce me, maybe you didn’t remember their names. They looked at me like I wasn’t supposed to be there. Made me feel weird but I didn’t think much of it. Then one of the girls looks at me, with a look that could kill and said: “Who are YOU?”. I didn’t even know how to answer. I am not sure if you heard her or not, but you told her you would go to the washroom and come right back to meet them by the bar.

I was confused but I brushed it off, I was so happy to be there with you that no one could take me off my high. I waited for you to come back, you never came back. I called you, your phone was off going to the answering machine. My heart sunk you left me there in the bar, alone. My first feeling was to be upset, then I gave you the benefit of the doubt and thought maybe you looked for me and couldnt’ find me. I wanted to get to the bottom of it.

Then my alarm rang… It was all a dream but it felt so real. I guess from what I can deduct I was afraid of you leaving me, or maybe one step further, I am afraid of being alone. I dunno but I was really into this dream as though it was real. I sat up alone in my bed and all I could think was “It is what it is”, I finally can fit this sentence properly in my life. I am alone, I miss you and you are not here and probably will never be. Nothing I can do about it.