There is a fine line between being someones friend, and having  a friend in someone.  No matter how hard you try to chose your friends, sometimes you can’t chose them, they prove to you who they are in your life. I know this because again, I reap the results of being friends with people who do not deserve my friendship. I am not sure if they EVER deserve it, or they just don’t currently deserve it. Regardless, this situation has proven to be far too much for me to handle. Not only that, but its reminding me of situations that are immature, and that I would have understood better when I was 19-20. I am way too old now to deal with immature situations of this sort.At first I felt bad, I tried to be there as a friend, tried to be as supportive as I could. Then I just saw that the more this situation went on, somehow you failed to see how you implicated everyone in compromising situations. All at the cost of you being “FREE”. Even then I kinda understood it, because I wanted you to be safe. Once you were at safety, you still went back in the fire, and threw everyone in there with you. That part I don’t get. This morning, I don’t get it or you anymore. Maybe you don’t even realize or think about the consequences but today after watching you jump back into it, I can’t help but see what the situation really is YOU NOT THINKING.

I can’t do this anymore, I am too grown. I have my own problems to deal with. Quite frankly I don’t want any of this in my life anymore.  There was a time when I was younger, where I could have entertained this a bit long but I have too much to lose now to sit here naively over situations that aren’t even mine to deal with.I hope you read this and understand how I feel, because when I try to speak to you about it and you laugh it off, you really make me think you have lost all sense of reasoning.