I dream of being in love, I want love and think I am ready for love. I feel that I am just missing that companionship, that man that will stand by my side and have my back through it all. The one that will love me even on those days where I don’t feel so great.

Here is the problem, wanting all this is great. What happens when that presents itself and you aren’t letting it in, you aren’t giving it a chance. I struggle with that all the time, I have a hard time letting him in, I have a hard time letting him love me. I had to explain this to him yesterday and let him know that it wasn’t that I didn’t like him, it was simply that I always have a hard time letting someone into my life. I am making improvements daily, I think I am just afraid in the end of caring for someone and not having that person stay. Abandonment issues I guess, I am aware and trying to work on it. I also know that there is no guarantee… I digress.

Have you ever felt this way?

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