“How did we make it here?” , “Where ?” pretending I am completely oblivious to the fact that we are walking arm in arm, happy as ever, walking past his old apartment from 7 years ago. He answers “Here ! You know this place, where we are, this stage, how did we get here?”. I think about this for a long moment, and maybe I am so happy to be with him, I can’t even think of the HOW, all I know is it feels absolutely divine. Him and I together it has always felt right. I didn’t really care to know how we made it here, as much as I cared to just remain here. I guess to remain here, I would have to find out how we got here.

When I saw him last night, there was no doubt in my mind that this was my man. I felt so peaceful, I felt so happy, I didn’t want it to end. His touch gave me shivers, walking holding on to him made my heart smile. I didn’t want him to go back (away to school). I wanted to tell him to stay, I knew he couldn’t. I wanted to tell him to come back, I knew he couldn’t. Mostly I wanted to tell him, that I was ready and that we should do this. Then I decided not to rush the speed of things but I really didn’t think we needed further proof that we were both completely head over heels for each other.  I didn’t say any of those things, but when I felt the urge to, I spoke them silently to myself. I know that there is a chance that he may have known all along what I was speaking in my heart.

I think I know how we made it here: real love, patience, faith, lots of forgiveness, truth. Here is to us continuing to be here, here is to you lifting me higher. As I went home, although I knew that he would be gone in a few days, I felt an incredible sense of strength. I asked my friend  “Does it sound silly to say that his love makes me stronger, because I really feel it does” she answered “It’s not silly if that’s how you feel”.

One of my happiest memories is when the Jill Scott album first came out, he gave it to me. I fell in love with this song, and every morning when I woke up I would play this song. It was such a great song for how he made me feel, and even better song to wake up to.

I digress… I am in love, I am happy. kthnxbye

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