Lately that has been in the back of my mind, many situations have been arising that have me thinking to myself  “Is this for real, B*TCH PLEASE” lmao. I don’t actually say it out loud, its more in my head, its aimed at my astonishment in certain situations.

Although I guess, that’s a pretty negative thought to think, I am proud of myself for not reacting to these situations. I have somehow mastered the art of staying silent observing, staying still. If you know me, then you know this is a complete improvement on who I used to be. I am questioning a lot of people around me lately, I am questioning the way they address me, I am questioning the tone they are using with me. As where in the past, I would have reacted in possibly a confrontational way, these days I stay silent. I sit still. I say nothing, observing. The only thing I do is think “B*TCH PLEASE”. 

I think to myself, regardless of what they are doing, regardless of if its wrong or right, I think these situations are occurring to show me something about myself. I can’t force those people to change, but I sure can change myself in those situations, that’s the only thing that I have control over. So rather than confronting them about things that bother me, I rather work on myself and see how things play out / if they play out. I look inside myself and see how I can change the situation and make it better for me. The truth is, it doesn’t matter if you feel that you aren’t receiving the respect you think you deserve, or aren’t being treated the way you think you ought to be treated. If you remain in settings that allow that to continue, then it isn’t their faul, it’s YOURS. As much as I want to tell them “B*TCH PLEASE”, I think that would just bread negativity and prevent me from staying focused on the goal at hand.

I prefer to say in general, not to a person but to situations that we allow to take us off our course,  “B*TCH PLEASE”.