Forgiveness, that’s a topic on my mind these days. I can forgive, I believe in forgiving, its the only way to move on and to free ourselves. Along with forgiveness though, I believe in communicating with the other party, on what the issue was, and how it made you feel. I think forgiveness and communication combined are the only way to be released from the burden of conflicts.

She called me the other day, left me a message just to say “I forgive you, for what you have done. I am not mad at you, and I will always be there for you no matter what. Whether or not you choose to speak to me again, I will always be there” . If  you are wondering who she is, and what she is referring to – check out this post here.

Now I forgive her, of course I do. How can I not forgive her. No one is perfect, I understand that she can make mistakes as anyone else. She called yesterday to ask if I got her message, I said yes. I didn’t reply to her message, or call her back when I got it. Simply because I think I need to write her a letter. Anything other than that would lead to constant back and forth. Really, I just want her to hear what I have to say, about the feelings that I have been harboring for years. I didn’t tell her that though, I just figured when my thoughts were settled I would write her the letter to let her know I felt exactly.

She said something on the phone that was significant, she said that she didn’t want to hear how I felt. She said there was no point in speaking about the past, and that I should just move on. That bothered me a bit, as I feel that in order to truly move on, I need her to hear how these situations have affected me. I will be the first to admit that I am not always right, I am however ready to move on once and for all. In order to do this, I think I need her to listen. Do you think I should let it go? Do you think you can move on from a situation without expressing to the person how you felt?

I am so tired of this being a reoccurring broken heel moment in my life. I want to get passed it once and for all. I think I will feel so much better once I do and perhaps our relationship can reach a new height.