I came to realize yesterday, in what was a very emotional moment that I had to take a few steps back in order to move forward. When I say emotional I mean almost crying, and not realizing where the emotion was coming from.  Trying to hold it in so much that I was trembling, had to take a seat and focus on my breathing. Then I reflected, I have been stuck in forward mode for as long as I can remember, I never really thought about taking steps back. It used to be that I thought, taking a step back meant that you failed, and that you had to retrace your steps to correct your mistakes. I was so afraid of failure that I wouldn’t admit it to myself, that perhaps I could have done things differently, and perhaps I still can if I go back to make them different.

In my early 20′s I wanted to conquer the world (I still do), and I really thought I would. No one could tell me otherwise. Sooner than later I realized I couldn’t do everything at once so, I would tell myself ” When I get older I will tackle this, and get on it”. Pushing it all to when I got older. Well I am 28 years old now, and when I get older is now ! It’s fun to say “When I get older” when you are only 21, but that older eventually comes and you can’t keep postponing things any longer. That’s where I feel I am now, I am older, I should be wiser. I definitely feel as though if there are things that I envisioned myself doing, or that I wanted for myself; the time is now to either GET THEM DONE (cause I am now “older”) or forget about them.

In order to get things done sometimes, when you flew by the seat of your pants for so many years. When you are used to being in the fast lane for so long that you bypassed things… The only way to get them done is to go back and deal with them.

Have you ever had a moment where you felt you needed to go back before moving forward? How did you deal with it?