In just about 4 weeks, My Mr. will be gone back overseas to school. I am his biggest fan when it comes to the sacrifices and dedication he puts forth towards his education. I would never tell him not to leave, just as when he began medical school 2 years ago I didn’t tell him not to go. I think its admirable that he is so focused on his academic achievements.

This is the first time since he has been here on holiday that we haven’t gotten into any disagreements, normally him going back to school is much easier because we aren’t on speaking terms. This time around is a bit different. I wish he didn’t have to go, I got used to him being here. Not only is it 4 weeks until he leaves, its 4 years until he is done school. What I have learned over the years is, when you truly love someone you support them in their decisions although it isn’t what you would like to see  happen immediately. So I am learning, I am being as understanding and supportive as I can. I can’t help it that I want him to be here, and that I wish those 4 years were almost done.

I am counting down the 4 weeks, trying to make the most of the time we have left, as I will likely not see him until April 2011. Seems like a long time from now. I guess the question here is, am I patient enough to deal with this? I love him so much that I don’t see how I could not deal with it. He doesn’t want me to wait, but my heart wants to wait, my heart has alread decided that there is no one else it would rather be with. As long as he continues to meet me halfway, I will stand by his side, as he has always stood by my side.

He set me on cloud 2500 the whole summer, and I didn’t want to ever come down. It seems that as always, reality sets in. He is there for four more years and I am here. Who knows how this story ends, I sure hope it ends with him but only time will tell. I have a lot of faith in us, and at the bottom of my heart, I feel that this separation make us grow stronger apart for us to continue to grow stronger together.

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