Yesterday I ran into one of My. Mr’s friends, and it was so pleasant.  He’s known my Mr. for a while and was there through our 7 years on and off, chaos.

As I left he said to me “If you are thinking of choosing one… he’s the one”.  It made my heart smile and I said “I knew long time ago he was the one”.

I thought about how much I fought the love, how much I thought I was undeserving of such a love. It is everything I wanted, and for some reason I almost let it slip again. I went through a phase where I almost managed to convince myself that it was too good to be true, and that I didn’t deserve it.

The distance, the years he has left to complete his program work in our favor more than we care to admit. I am now finally secure in myself enough to know that I deserve to be in love, and I am deserving of such a love.  I am secure in us. When love comes knocking at your door, don’t sabotage and slam the door in its face. Let love in, let it change you. Yes you will feel vulnerable, yes it may feel like everything is too good to be true. When you feel that way, don’t fight it, don’t look for faults in it. It feel right for a reason, because it is right. You have to love yourself enough to let someone love you.

If I had to choose one, I have already chosen and I hope he chose me too.