Nothing like a handwritten letter, touches the soul ! Last Wednesday My. Mr. left to go back to school, and he mailed me a letter before boarding the plane. Every morning like a little girl, I would rush to the office hoping to see it at my desk. Friday I walked it, and found the envelop on my desk… SUPER HAPPY ! Yes corny I know, but I need corny and mushy to feel happy and balance out the negativity around me. Read more…

They will never understand us… why bother, it’s just you and I. I can’t expect you to understand why I love him so much… I can’t expect you to understand what he means to mean and how I am able to deal with our situation. It’s just for us to understand.

What I do know is that I am glad that I always listened to myself when it came to matters between him and I, as no one could possibly advise me on my heart’s matters. When everyone told me this was a dead end, I knew it wasn’t. When everyone told me that I was crazy and he had no good intentions for me, I knew they didn’t know what they were talking about. I don’t know how I knew but my heart told me and I listened to my voice. I may have doubted it sometimes but a little part of me knew that my heart wouldn’t lead me wrong. Read more…

In just about 4 weeks, My Mr. will be gone back overseas to school. I am his biggest fan when it comes to the sacrifices and dedication he puts forth towards his education. I would never tell him not to leave, just as when he began medical school 2 years ago I didn’t tell him not to go. I think its admirable that he is so focused on his academic achievements.

This is the first time since he has been here on holiday that we haven’t gotten into any disagreements, normally him going back to school is much easier because we aren’t on speaking terms. This time around is a bit different. I wish he didn’t have to go, I got used to him being here. Not only is it 4 weeks until he leaves, its 4 years until he is done school. What I have learned over the years is, when you truly love someone you support them in their decisions although it isn’t what you would like to see  happen immediately. So I am learning, I am being as understanding and supportive as I can. I can’t help it that I want him to be here, and that I wish those 4 years were almost done. Read more…

Sometimes if not most often, I believe that people should say what they mean to say. I can’t imagine anything worst than living your whole life, witholding how you really feel about things, keeping it all to yourself. Life is too short to not share what you are really feeling with others. Last week, I took my heart in my hand or I put it on my sleeve I should say and poured it all out. I didn’t tell anyone I was going to do it, because I knew they wouldn’t understand. So… I did it. I wrote it out, in this blog to free myself of my thoughts. I didn’t think he would read it but he did. Read more…

Whenever someone around me says “we are getting old” I always correct them, and say “no actually, we are getting older”. Huge difference to me. I am in my late twenties, used to think that turning thirty was going to be soooo terrifying, and now I don’t. I know many women who are thirty, or older than thirty, I secretly envy their wisdom and the way they know themselves. There are some things that come with getting older, that nothing can change. You can think you are the most mature, prepared person, and really some things only time, and age will be able to teach you.

Only until a few months ago, I was stuck on – the one , so I thought (clearly wasn’t the one). He consumed me for 5 years. Something I learned from women that are in their thirties, and older is poise. They make dating look like so much fun. I took a page from their book. I started to accept the flirting, embrace it. Really let go, and get to know others, while having fun.  I was so reserved before, I didn’t grasp all the opportunities and adventures dating had in store. Thinking I was holding my all for the one.  Well thank goodness those days are over, I am enjoying going on dates now, being admired. Who doesn’t like it? I am enjoying getting to know me again through dating, and learning not to take any of it seriously. Really enjoying  having a more casual approach FINALLY ! Its funny how as soon as you let go, and stop having expectations they all come running. LOL I haven’t had this many dates in EVER. LOL It’s all very fun !

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