Read this on Mastin Kipp site today, thought I would share.

Love will do the rest

Beginnings are never easy
So much is still unknown
So many desires seeking fulfillment
Collide with the patient trust that
Everything is as it should be
Love does not rush
No masterpiece ever does
You do not plant the seed of a rose in the morning
And ask it to blossom by the afternoon
Lust is the first one in
And the first one out
But love…
Love is cool, calm and collected
It plays tricks on you to keep you honest
Love is a patient comedian
Who helps you to get over the fearful ego
So you have the fearlessness to BE with yourself and another
I do not ask for easy beginnings
Because I know that the One meant for me will stick
With no effort on my behalf
There is no striving for love
There is no convincing love to stay
There is just you
Your fearlessness
And trust
Love will do the rest

Copyright 2010 Mastin Kipp

I loved for a long time, I loved really hard, I let love improve the content of my character. I allowed loved to show me faith, trust, patience, understanding. I still love you, but I am out of cards to show you, all my love cards are on the table. This time, its your turn to love me. Meet me halfway and love me… I am going to let you love me now. It’s your turn.

In just about 4 weeks, My Mr. will be gone back overseas to school. I am his biggest fan when it comes to the sacrifices and dedication he puts forth towards his education. I would never tell him not to leave, just as when he began medical school 2 years ago I didn’t tell him not to go. I think its admirable that he is so focused on his academic achievements.

This is the first time since he has been here on holiday that we haven’t gotten into any disagreements, normally him going back to school is much easier because we aren’t on speaking terms. This time around is a bit different. I wish he didn’t have to go, I got used to him being here. Not only is it 4 weeks until he leaves, its 4 years until he is done school. What I have learned over the years is, when you truly love someone you support them in their decisions although it isn’t what you would like to see  happen immediately. So I am learning, I am being as understanding and supportive as I can. I can’t help it that I want him to be here, and that I wish those 4 years were almost done.

I am counting down the 4 weeks, trying to make the most of the time we have left, as I will likely not see him until April 2011. Seems like a long time from now. I guess the question here is, am I patient enough to deal with this? I love him so much that I don’t see how I could not deal with it. He doesn’t want me to wait, but my heart wants to wait, my heart has alread decided that there is no one else it would rather be with. As long as he continues to meet me halfway, I will stand by his side, as he has always stood by my side.

He set me on cloud 2500 the whole summer, and I didn’t want to ever come down. It seems that as always, reality sets in. He is there for four more years and I am here. Who knows how this story ends, I sure hope it ends with him but only time will tell. I have a lot of faith in us, and at the bottom of my heart, I feel that this separation make us grow stronger apart for us to continue to grow stronger together.

*image from Weheartit.com

I was having a conversation late last night with one of my girls, she was in a bit of a funk. She was also being very hard on herself, so I felt the need to show her that everyone goes through their ups and downs, and its perfectly normal.

While I was reminiscing about all the BS I had been through and how I made it through. I thought of him… My Mr. , who for the past 6 years taught me what love was. See back then, I didn’t love myself, I had the lowest self esteem and the more I didn’t love myself, the more I sought to be loved.  I didn’t understand why I could be in a loving relationship, that’s because I didn’t even have one with myself. He knew this all along, (I am sure) and stood by my side knowing that I needed to grow. I used to think I was in love with him then, I didn’t know what love was, I could barely love myself. I am in love with him today, after years of learning how to love myself.

I don’t think I can ever express to him the overwhelming sense of gratitude I have when I think of him being there beside me through my transitions and growth. Patiently he stood by my side, to teach me so much about myself, most importantly to teach me how to love myself by showing me that I was worth it. He is such a big part of me, and I am writing this for him to know just how much he has helped me. I don’t think I could have done all of this without someone believing in me. I love the man he is and the man he is growing into, I believe in him 100 times over and I really believe that the world is his to conquer.

Be thankful for the people that stand by your side through your transitions and growth. They make the ride worth it.

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Tell him I need him, tell him I love him…

Tell him I need him, tell him I love him…

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(I love this picture, I want this on top of my bed…)

I am still in the mindset of cheating and cheaters, since finding out about my father over the weekend. When I heard about the news, I wasn’t supposed to know, and although I tried to act like I wasn’t fased by it. I sure was. Immediately I panicked and texted my Mr. and said to him ” I know this text is completely random but promise me that if we are married later, and you want out or want to cheat you will let me know, promise”

He’s so smooth with his words, which is one of the many reasons I am head over heels for him. He always knows what to say to calm me and reassure me that its all going to be ok. So he replies ” I think we have established a foundating of truth here already, princess. I promise to always respect you and all aspect of our relationship”.

I know he must have gotten my first text and thought I was crazy, but he went out of his way to reassure me. I love that he understands that sometimes I may be prone to thinking in patterns that were constituted by my past, he is aware of this and takes into consideration. I trust my Mr. with all my heart, does the fact that I found out about my father make me think that he too will cheat on me on day? No, but I did want him to know that if he ever felt the urge to that I would welcome him telling me. I am terrified of my parent’s past repeating itself in my future, and he knows this. Sometimes  I have broken heel moments due to the past my parents laid before me, and my Mr. loves me through them, patiently.

“Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire.” – Francois de la Rouchefoucauld

I saw this ad while I was out with him, and he pointed it out. He mentioned it would look great in his living space. Although I had walked by that ad many times, I never actually read it. What a true statement. I used to think that the distance between us would draw us apart little did I know, it would bring us closer than ever. I have been thinking a lot lately about how far we have come, and how I would never have thought in a million years that we would be at this place. This peaceful, loving, open space.

It actually made me cry, to know that for once I actually believed that maybe one day I can marry someone that I am in love with, and who is in love with me. Maybe one day I can have a family of my own, where two parents are madly in love, sharing love with their children. Just maybe, I can have a chance to create something that I have never had myself. I never really thought that I would be worthy of  having something like that in my life. Although we are not there yet, when I look at him, and what we have been through I couldn’t choose a better person to be by my side. He is the one who has actually showed me that I was worthy of all this.

I try not to think about it, but in just over a month he will be gone again. I used to be frightened that an ocean separating us would make him forget our love, now I am no longer worried as I know that we are stronger than ever.

What a great follow up article to the post I wrote yesterday called – Follow Your Intuition, I received this article in my inbox and wanted to share with you what I read. Would love to read this book, I learned a lot just by reading the article. Let me know your thoughts.

Author of Love and Intuition: A Psychic’s Guide to Creating Lasting Love

Tara, a friend of mine, first noticed Jeff while standing in the crowded line of a coffee shop waiting for her morning dose of caffeine. When their eyes met she felt a deep and compelling inner stirring. A casual hello that morning and the following morning, led to conversation and Jeff asking her to dinner. On their first date Tara told me that there was no denying their shared mutual attraction. Despite their many differences, such as education and occupation, Tara works for a biotechnical firm and Jeff drives a city bus, they both felt an instantaneous and unspoken connection to one another.

The immediate attraction that people in love often feel for one another is seldom logical or rational. It is instead a form of intuitive knowing that springs from the deep stirrings of the soul.

Intuition has been defined as simply knowing something without knowing how you know it. We have all had this experience. For instance, have you ever had a strong feeling of trust or mistrust in another upon first meeting? Have you ever thought of a loved one and you soon receive an email or phone call from them? Or have you ever pushed away uncomfortable feelings about another because you had no proof of problems and later regretted doing so? These are all common intuitive signals that most of us at one time or another experience.
Feelings of love and attraction magnify intuitive ability.

Take Gabby for instance. For the past several weeks when her husband Carl, leaves for work, she feels heaviness in the pit of her stomach. Although Carl keeps assuring her that everything at work is going well, Gabby has a hard time ignoring the sinking feeling that something is not right. When sharing this feeling with a friend of hers who works for the same company as her husband, she discovers that there are rumors of impending layoffs. This information confirms what she has been feeling. With this advanced notice, Carl immediately contacts a career recruiting service that had previously sought him out. Everyone has intuitive ability and with a little attention and focus you can learn how to effectively use it.

Your intuition can for instance, help you to attract a loving partner, provide valuable insight into others and increase self awareness as to your own sometimes baffling emotional patterns and attractions. Your intuitive knowing can also save you from unnecessary relationship heartache, increase intimacy and help you and your partner to more effectively communicate.

The following steps will help you to tune into and develop your natural intuition.

1. To begin, become aware of how your intuition naturally surfaces. It will emerge primarily through your thoughts, your emotions, your body or your spirit essence.
If you receive intuitive information through your emotions you are an emotional intuitive. You are empathetic and feel what others feel. You give from the heart and most likely you long for a deep authentic loving relationship with a soul mate. Emotional intuitives believe that love can conquer all and are usually sympathetic, compassionate and sometimes vulnerable partners.

A mental intuitive intuits through their thoughts. They often intuit the opinions views and ideas of others. They see the big picture, and their intuitive ability inspires creative ideas and solutions to problems. In relationships mental intuitives need to feel understood, accepted and acknowledged for their keen perception and insight. They tend to be nonjudgmental, open minded and interesting partners.

If you are a physical intuitive you likely absorb the energy of others and the environment into your body. A physical intuitive will often experience their intuition as gut feelings or spontaneous aches and pains. Upon first meeting another they may for no known reason experience tingling shivers up their spine or their stomach may churn and somersault. In relationships a physical intuitive demonstrates love through touch, hugs, hand holding and sexual intimacy.

A spiritual intuitive receives intuitive energy in less tangible ways than the other three types. They may receive intuitive information about their family members and friends in their dreams or through instantaneous impressions. These types of intuitives will sometimes “see” family members who have passed over and they may have visions of the future or of events in distant places. In relationships a spiritual intuitive is likely to fall in love at first sight, be spontaneous, insightful and wise.

2. However your intuition emerges, listen to it. Trust your initial impressions. It is often the first impulse you have about another, even before you know much about them that is the most accurate. Make it a habit to check in and listen for your intuitive responses.

You might want to tune into the signals of your particular intuitive type.

If you are an emotional intuitive notice how you feel around others. Are you quickly comfortable, calm, stressed or anxious? Do you feel opened hearted or self protective?
If you are a mental intuitive you might hear an inner voice telling you that either something is not “right” or that you can relax and trust. Another common intuitive signal for the mental intuitive is an idea or thought that quietly but persistently keeps surfacing.

If you are a physical intuitive check tune into your physical boy. Do you feel tight, tense or relaxed? Do you develop headaches or stomach pains around certain people or situations?
A spiritual intuitive will often intuit in his or her dreams. If you suspect you are a spiritual intuitive, before you go to sleep at night ask for a dream that will help you to understand a particular person or situation. When you wake notice your initial feelings and thoughts and if you can recall a dream, write it down. If you do not understand it, seek help in interpreting it. You might find that it holds valuable information.

3. Once you become aware of an intuitive sensation or impression, spend some time alone where you can be undisturbed and further tune in. Focus within and ask for the message or meaning behind the intuitive sensations. Listen and try not to logically figure this out. Breathe, relax and become receptive. Then trust what you receive.

Be honest about your desires and expectation, about another or a relationship. Your expectations of another will muffle your ability to listen to important vital intuitive information. Be willing to know the truth and release your desired outcome.

Once you consciously begin to develop and align yourself with your intuition, the intuitive messages, sensations and impressions will increase. Be patient with yourself and the process. With time and practice your intuition will strengthen and become more clear and accurate.
Love is a powerful force that is always intuitively guiding you.

© 2010 Sherrie Dillard, author of Love and Intuition: A Psychic’s Guide to Creating Lasting Love
Author Bio

Author of the bestselling Discover Your Psychic Type, Sherrie Dillard has been a New Thought pastoral counselor, professional psychic, medium, and teacher for over twenty years. She has taught classes and workshops, both nationally and internationally, on the life-enhancing aspects of intuition development. Her writing has also appeared in New Age Journal and on Wellness.com and HitchedMag.com.

For more information please visit www.SherrieDillard.com and follow the author on Facebook.

” Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage. ” – Lao Tzu

“If you love me, there is nothing that I will not brave for your sake.” – Voltaire to Catherine Dunoyer 1713, The Hague